just so you know

Posted on Wednesday, February 28, 2007 -

It’s been forever since we last talked, since we last met, since we last hanged out. Somehow it can’t be helped that so many things remind me of you. It’s been hard & boring when your missing your so called “other half” when there’s no one to compete with in looks, bball, singing, and other games we played. The days when you walk down the rows of food stores alone, or when you sit down in ydm/church with an empty seat beside you, or when you’re on the court wifout your usual teammate, or when you’re just wasting time bcos there isn’t anything else to do, when theres no one to share your laughter with bcos yu dont tink no one else wud tink its funny, yu wish for companionship. Yu think back to the good ole’ times, smile, and then sigh. There’s a lot of things I miss, from the littlest things such as “hows life?” or perhaps one of our short phrases, to the bigger things like memories. The good ones & even the bad. Somehow I just can’t forget…

How will you be remembered my dear brother? Here is your answer. We’ll start with your lameness, even though you were cool, the jokes that somehow never get old;),the cheesiness that you’ve passed on to me. Then we go on to basketball, all time star, who always seemed to get injured when I got injured=S, who always had his smooth moves which he of course learnt from me:D ur awesome voice, to tell you the truth I had always envied you for backup singing, how I wish to have been singing with you & jamming, our dreams of being worship leaders and doing all the cool songs, for standing out & not being afraid of showing other people who you were. Last but not least I guess you could say me. Your childhood frewn, your partner in crime, yur teacher;),your beloved brother in Christ. I could list even more but I’m sure you should know the rest. You were different & that’s why you’ll always be remembered.

You’ve made me think a lot. About the future really. About the day I leave Brunei to see the real world, to face what lies ahead. I know its gonna be hard, to leave the things you love the most, the people who you shared your life with, the place where you grew up, & of course the memories. So ive made a decision. I’m not going to ever forget my frewns, my family, and all the other things. No matter where life takes me, it’ll still be a part of me which ill carry for life because I believe that they somewhat made a difference. It seems so far away but still so close.

At times it does feel easier to just forget. It feels easy to just let the past be past, to let it all just slip away, to let it all just fade away till its nothing but extra baggage that is totally meaningless that you hold in your heart. But lets just face the fact-Life is never easy. It gets harder & harder. To just turn over a new leaf & leave even the good parts of the past. But how could you possibly do that I ask myself? You’ll only just hurt yourself & the people whom you love. I’m sure there’s a reason why they were put into your life. In the end we know that god works for the good & no matter how much we want things our way, it all comes to gods will & plan for us for he knows best. You say 7 years, but who knows? Time flies & its irreversible which sucks. Call me gay if you want, but you just don’t understand. I long for the day we meet again & pray for it too, to just see how much you’ve grown over the past years, & to find out what the so much ive missed in your life. Until then, stay in touch, keep your fire burning & remember god’s there for you & I shall be too. Miss you hell lots.

Oh yea, I almost forgot, good luck with your ABC;) & make sure you invite me to sing on your wedding=p

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-Jingsz.xX.

Ps. jon lee, yu’re in my prayers.hang in there & get well soon bro.miss playing bball with yous. I’ll probably come visit you sometime soon.
Pps.BGIC starts 2molo!! Lots of work & food tooXD
Ppps.Hillsong United Album, All of the Above releases this month!
Pppps. I can’t believe it, it’s March alreadyD_D
Ppppps.I passed my very first CID IT exam baby!!!! One step closer to my diploma!! WOOTS!!
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