And there and then I know you heard my cry, that you heard the pleas, and collected every tear. That I am not forgotten. Honestly, I feel friendless in terms of relationship, only cos' theres not much people that I talk to about. Words dont come out as easily I suppose. Words dont seem anyways; lovely as they all seemed, comforting & soaked in sweetness, I tasted bitterness.
i'm just not ready to give in. But you know what, i'm taking a step back, im releasing the pressure, i'm gonna bite my tongue, stay quiet and hear your say. Theres' more than you think, i'm not just anything. I was damn sure something.
Forget the song; & if you wanna know how i feel, i'm sure this stance amplifies the very way i feel. Things don't change so easily for me, and this isn't suppose to anyways.
That it seems like you refuse to think about it, or even listen. That I’m praying your conscience is on my side. You tell me to stop acting all tough, yet you think that we can live without. Now look in the mirror and stop acting tough yourself, your presumptions you think are the best but you’re not even sure yourself. We’re only here cos’ of your weakness believe it or not. Through it all you’ve been so vulnerable, and no matter how hard it seems; you eventually give in and give up on me and it only gets easier for you. That its sad to say and hurtful, but I see the truth in it. For the record, you’ve admitted beforehand too.
I always thought you’d be smart enough to draw the line yourself, to stop right there. That I can only watch you cross the limits, whisper my warnings and wait for a crashing moment. I thought you would simply come’ back yourself. You don’t want to hurt, you don’t want to lose it, then why crossover? This isn’t the first time but I’m hoping it’s the last; that I know you’re stronger.
I jump in to save us, I try to move you but you don’t want to budge, I try to hold your hand but you’d rather hold you’re grudge. That im not making it harder, you are. Bcos’ I understand, I’m doing what I do best in times like this; & carry on loving you. You shut me away intentionally and take me for granted. Cos’ nothings worth losing, even the chance to make it right
Draggyness is killing you. & you’re plans are to cut it off here and drag it off somewhere else? Tell me exactly how that helps either of us? You’re not even fixing it and perhaps screwing things up somewhere else later on… By far, the most upsetting thing is after so long, longer and beyond description, you make some rash decision in days. To be precise, I count one day. & you throw it all away.
You’re tired of trying, yet you haven’t even tried hard enough. You’ve only tried your hardest when you’ve actually won and overcome. You know what it feels like to regret; yet you prefer to blindly follow through & I cant let you live with it.
This is what I get for staying true, This is what I get from loving only you,
Let it rain; For my hopes remain high till you kill it. You just want it to lose it again, but I’m not like that;
Why don’t you come right out and say, even if the words, are probably gonna hurt, I’d rather want the truth than something insincere;
Why don’t you come right out and say, just what is it you’re thinking though I’m thinking it’s not what I want to hear.
Why don’t you come right out and say it, even if the words are gonna hurt, we’re better off this way, why don’t you come right out and say, what I know you’re thinking anyway;
That I only ask for you to consider; don’t just yet, pull the trigger; if it does end, it ends on a "good" note; that all this while, i was scared to bring you into the picture, & it took me so long to realise that god at this time i needed you...i needed you~ that you're not the one i should be really convincing, that if its whats best, so be it. My faith & trust, lies in you<3
The choice is yours; :) whatever you choose, i'll love you all the same.
Xx. jingsz.
